Tonight was the hardest night of my life!!!!

We went to visit friend of ours who is dying. I will finally say it! Sigh... Something I didn't want to ever say for someone younger than I am. Not sure how anyone deals with this! It is one thing to loose a parent or grand parent which you know you will but to loose a younger friend or family member is so unprecedented! I am so very sad about it but yet he faces it with such dignity! If I could help in some little way it would be easier but there is no way to do this! We always went to movies together but somehow I don't know if I will ever go again! It is just too painful! Facing tomorrow with my husband parents coming for Thanksgiving when this is occurring is too much in many ways. How can a person be happy and so very sad? I would say at this point I am very angry! I have lost too much to cancer and no more is acceptable! I still remember my fathers secretaries funeral when I was young. She had been married and then almost right away developed very fast growing cancer. I lost one of my bridesmaids to skin cancer and my aunt to breast cancer. My grandmother died of this as well though we were told it wasn't something that ran in the family. I always will wonder as I learned later in life the wells in that part of the city were well over acceptable radon standards though the city said they were supposedly going to change soon! What sort of payoff was involved there? She was so very nice it was unimaginable to see her go from her wedding dress to her coffin It seems there are so many studies and nothing ever comes of them! I have looked into it and found while there is initial funding for the research there isn't money to take it further. In the end I really think we the people need to stand up for what we really need/want and stop paying for these half assed treatments and look for a real cure! Sorry to rant but I have really had enough!!! I hope someone else out there who can do something about it feels the same!