I tried to write but found instead to much needed doing. A friend is very ill and spending time with him was simply more important. Days have been spent getting estimates on car repairs and estimates on fixing our roof. Happily I managed to loose a few sizes and so more time went to finding new cloths since I recently got rid of my old ones. I have resisted diet for a long time because they always seem so obsessive. That isn't to say I would mind being thinner but not enough to have to worry about everything I eat. In Hawaii we ate so often that I finally was forced to start a diet. I simply only ate when I was hungry, I only ate as much as I felt like, and ate it slowly. I lost some weight and now have been steady for a few weeks. There was nothing like the joy I felt at being able to shop at a regular store. It was so exciting at first. I am finding it more difficult now because though the pants fit the tops are another story. The tops are like my life right now, not one thing or another. With all the work needing to be done on the house and car, having no job and my husband facing a layoff if the state shuts down. I wonder what is next? I hope to find my way through to the next thing somehow. I would like to pray but that doesn't seem fair because there are so many that are worse off. The only thing I feel like I can control right now are my teeth so I am am only going to finish the root canal portion of the treatment and the rest will wait for for next year.
I have found myself contemplating the the hidden or maybe not so hidden cost of being poor. It is bad teeth. One root canal costs over $1000 without the cap. My insurance only covers up to that much but will only pay out half of the total bill most of which has been used up by cleanings. Most poor people have the tooth pulled if they are lucky. If your teeth are crooked and you are poor they stay that way. I have had dreams about loosing teeth and thought there has to be a better way. While searching the web I found that they can regrow teeth, but of course it isn't for public consumption as yet. I would so rather have that done! I hope for it to be available to everyone in the future, not just to the wealthy. In my world everyone deserves to have teeth!!! Of course I am hoping we keep the paycheck too!
This time I am not going to make any plans. I will see what life brings us. I hope to write, dance, and why not, I hope to win the lottery. Though none of those things will solve the worlds woes but I will hope to make things a little bit better.
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